Walls, even prison walls, aren’t always the physical kind. God has blessed me with a unique testimony in which I have experienced a lot of the walls and prisons. Some of these were self-inflicted while others I had no control of. This is the position that this blog will be writing from.
A little about myself:
I was born an Air force brat in 1975 and for the next 16 years was raised in that environment. In those years I had a few encounters with the police and really didn’t make it easy for my teachers. I was very strong willed and stubborn. When my dad retired it was really a culture shock for me and ended up running fast in the wrong direction. After many wrong choices and only thinking about myself I ended up being addicted to drugs and eventually landed in prison. I did manage to find Jesus (the real Jesus) along the way but never fully committed to Him.
After I was released from prison in 2000 I tried to re define myself, my own way. Just like before, it didn’t work. My world only grew darker. Things might have looked good at times on the outside but I was building walls on the inside, and I was building them high. To be honest the only one I cared about was myself and what I could gain. Sure I had friends, a job, kids and all of that but it was all about me.
October of 2013 was when my life changed. It was the day that I realized that I was truly lost. I was at a crossroad and I needed to make a choice right at that moment the direction I was going to go. I had my Damascus road experience. That day I chose Jesus! That day was the beginning of the rest of my life. The road hasn’t been easy. Honestly there have been times that I didn’t think I would make it. But you see Jesus was and is transforming me. It took me years to build those walls. It took me years to become the bitter, anger, violent and hateful person I had become. Jesus is continually working to shape me into the man He wants me to be. I have learned a lot and still so little in the big picture.
The purpose for this blog is to help others. To help people trapped in a lifestyle or just coming out of a lifestyle full of darkness. The sad reality is that people can’t truly understand, no matter how much they try, what it’s like. No amount of school can give you the insight of the experience. I am living proof that there is a better way. You don’t have to be trapped inside the prison. Jesus can knock those walls down and free you. It’s starts with where you are right now and receiving Him into your life and heart.