I have to be honest, these past few days and even weeks have been a little tough. I have been struggling, or to better put it, battling with some things. Things from my past that bring doubt, fear and shame. I understand the whole deal about these thoughts and feelings coming from the enemy. I know most of the scriptures that talk about it. For me this doesn’t make the battle any easier. It wasn’t until today that God showed me something else in the scriptures. It’s funny because I’ve read it a million times almost overlooking a key part.
2 Corinthians 4:1-6 “Therefore, since we have this ministry, as we have received mercy, we do not lose heart. But we have renounced the hidden things of shame, not walking in craftiness nor handling the Word of God deceitfully, but by manifestation of the truth commending ourselves to every man’s conscience in the sight of God. But if our Gospel is veiled, it is veiled to those who are perishing, whose minds the god of this age has blinded, who do not believe, lest the light of the Gospel of the glory of Christ, who is the image of God, should shine on them. For we do not preach ourselves, but Christ Jesus the Lord, and ourselves your bondservants for Jesus’ sake. For it is the God who commanded light to shine out of darkness, who had shone in our hearts to give the light of the knowledge of the glory of God in the face of Jesus Christ.”
I never really paid much attention to the word “renounced” until today. Webster gives the definition: to give up, refuse, or resign usually by formal declaration.
Paul had to renounce shame. He had to actually, physically, refuse shame. That is mind blowing for me at this point in my walk. It’s mind blowing because I would always just tuck my head and wait for the feelings of shame and doubt to pass. Eventually they would and I would press on. This time they haven’t, they actually grew in intensity and pressure. Almost to a point of just giving up and giving in.
After reading these verses it was a mind blowing revelation. To be honest, I was actually looking for something else when God brought me to this chapter.
So here are my thoughts on this whole deal. As we grow in our relationship with Christ we will still be carrying things from our past. Sure we give up a lot when we accept Christ, but some things we hold on to. Like for me this lingering feeling of shame, doubt and fear that I would allow to creep in. My past has a lot of really dark places that the enemy tries to use. But as we grow stronger in our walk, our faith in Jesus grows. And with that comes the power (only through Christ) to finally deal with a specific thing. For me it was to finally have the strength to say “not today! Not any longer will I allow shame, doubt and fear control me”.
When those time would come for me it was as if my “light” would dim. It wouldn’t go out but I would feel almost disconnected from God. If you’re going through the same thing don’t lose hope. God is still in control and you (we) must do our best to remain focused on Him. His Word is our sword in this fight (Ephesians 6:10-19). This battle must be fought daily.
We are always here and available if you need help or guidance. Be blessed and remember that our strength as Christ followers comes from Jesus not ourselves.
In Christ alone